Thursday 14 March 2024

Tale of Two Homes

 















मुझे तो शायद ही कोई जानता हो, कॉलेज, स्कूल के दोस्त, ऑफिस, घर परिवार, बस, पर मैं जिनको जानता हूँ उनको शायद आप जानते होंगे, पहले मैं ये जानना चाहता हूँ कि आप पुरानी चीजों के बारे में क्या सोचते हैं, जैसे मुंबई की बात करें, बड़ी-बड़ी बिल्डिंग में रहने वाली जनरेशन की आमतौर पर पीछे वाली जनरेशन छोटे शहरों या गाँव में रहती थी, ऐस अब है कि बहुत से लोग इस जनरेशन के लोग गाँव और छोटे शहर से आए हैं।

और मेरा मानना है कि ये सवाल हमारी जनरेशन का नहीं है सिर्फ, ये पहले भी था, और शायद आगे भी रहेगा। मानो आप एक रेत का ढेर हो, और एक-एक कंकर उसमें से निकालकर कहीं और रख दिया जाए, ऐसा करते रहने पर किस कंकर को हटाने पर वह ढेर ढेर नहीं रहेगा?

अब इससे विचार को यहाँ थोड़ा विराम दे। जैसा कि आप जानते हैं, मेरी पारवारिक बड़ा समय खंडवा में गुजरा, और यह मशहूर है किशोर कुमार की जन्मभूमि होने के कारण भी, और हुआ यो कुछ दिन पहले बनारस जाने का अवसर मिला।

बनारस में देखने लायक बहुत सी चीजें हैं, पर एक जहाँ मेरा मन था हमेशा जाने का वह थी। वह बिस्मिल्लाह ख़ान का पुराना घर, वह घर जो टंग गलियों से होते हुए आता है, एक महान साक्ष्यता, भारत रत्न, और बेहद सरल इंसान, इतना इसलिए कह पा रहा हूँ क्योंकि अक्सर सुनता हूँ उनको यूट्यूब पर।

जैसा कि आपको बताया खंडवा से हूँ, और यह अभी ऐसा घर है लेजेंड्री सिंगर किशोर कुमार, बॉम्बे बाजार में उनका एक पुस्तहेन घर है, जर-जर हो रहा है, बाहर से जो लोग आते हैं, देखने की इच्छा जताते हैं।

जैसा मेरे लिए बिस्मिल्लाह ख़ान है जो मेरे लिए बनारस की पहचान है, उसी तरह वह घर किशोर कुमार का खंडवा का हस्ताक्षर है।

बहुत सालों पहले एक किताब पढ़ी थी चार्ल्स डिकेंस की "Tale of Two Cities" उसकी शुरुवात कुछ ऐसी थी।   

  "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way—in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only."

ये कथन कहीं बीच की बात करता है, बेस्ट टू वर्स्ट के बीच कहीं, विस्डम और फूलिशनेस के बीच कहीं, बिलीफ और इंक्रेड्यूलिटी के बीच कहीं, लाइट और डार्कनेस के बीच कहीं।

ठीक उसी तरह जब हम बात कर रहे थे कि कितने कंकर रेत के ढेर से निकाले कि अब वो ढेर रहे। सच बताऊं मुझे नहीं पता, मैं अब अपने शहर का नहीं raha ,ना हो पाया महानगर का।

जो बचा है mujh main इस छोटे शहर में वो कितना ho गया महानगर का पता नहीं, और महानगर  कितना हो गया मुझे main पता नहीं,

बिस्मिल्लाह और किशोर कुमार, के अवशेष हमारे अवशेष है, कुछ पर्ते हटाओ तो साफ साफ दिखाई देंगे, और ये देखना बहुत ज़रूरी है!

Sochta hu tho Kabir ki ye line yaad aati hai !

कहाँ से आया कहाँ जाओगे
खबर करो अपने तन की
कोई सदगुरु मिले तो भेद बतावें
खुल जावे अंतर खिड़की।।

 

 

Thursday 16 August 2018

Love and hate :: Atal Bihari for his words, women and whiskey!


                             





There was a playground in my home town which was named as Atal Bihari apparently Vajpayee once came to Khandwa for a political rally and stage was prepared for him on the playground, which was later used as stadium by local cricket teams some journalist who came to Khandwa for covering his political rally where friends with my dad they came to our home tea and snack , I never liked political discussions I was the one who served all guests tea and coffee , unwilling I was exposed to high intellectual discussions in my dad’s study sub consciously I was absorbing , one journalist compliant was that it’s very difficult to shoot his interviews because of the minutes long pauses he takes in between , first introduction to atal bihari was that playground over a medical college is been build up now and next one was the riot which happened in kundleshwar ward Khandwa , we were living in joint family and had Badha (Traditional maharastrian home) I was kid that time and witnessed some muslims shops been attacked and been burned down in our locality , I was to young and naïve to understand and as a kid without my fathers knowledge attended RSS shakas for which later I was reprimanded by my father and stopped attending them.

We moved to another place post that and then internet came into my life, that’s was year 1995 I remember watching his infamous video where he was indulged in demagoguery his infamous speech where from stage he said

सुप्रीम कोर्ट ने हमें, अधिकार दिया है कि हम कार सेवा करेंगे. रोकने का तो सवाल ही नहीं. कार सेवा करके सुप्रीम कोर्ट के किसी आदेश की अवेहलना नहीं होगी. कार सेवा करके सुप्रीम कोर्ट का सम्मान किया जाएगा. खुदाई बाद वहां जो नुकीले पत्थर निकले, उनपर तो कोई नहीं बैठ सकता, तो जमीन को समतल करना पड़ेगा. बैठने लायक बनाना पड़ेगा. यज्ञ का आयोजन होगा. मैं नहीं कल वहां क्या होगा...'

This speech was given hours before babri demolition, I could connect the dots between his speech and riots happened in my area since then I got apprehensive towards religious politics.
You tube and internet introduced his encounter with larger than life Nehrus aura in parliament In 1957, he was elected as a member of the 2nd Lok Sabha from Balrampur in Uttar Pradesh. It was here that he went toe-to-toe with veterans of the Congress, including Prime Minister Jawaharlal Nehru. Vajpayee also caught Nehru’s eye who saw great potential in the young Parliamentarian.

Once Nehru is said to have introduced Vajpayee to the British Prime Minister and said, “He (Atal) is a young leader of the opposition who is always criticising me, but I see in him a great future.” To another foreign dignitary, Nehru described Vajpayee as “India’s blooming young Parliamentarian”.

Nehru is said to have taken a keen interest in Vajpayee, who was unsparing in his criticism of the government and yet, respected the high office of the Prime Minister which Nehru occupied. Once, while taking a dig at Nehru, Vajpayee said, “I know that Pandit Ji practices shirshasana and is welcome to continue doing so, but this does not mean that he should look at issues with an inverted vision.”

In 1970, during a particularly heated debate, Indira Gandhi accused the Jana Sangh of being anti-Muslim and claimed she could deal with an outfit like the Jana Sangh in five minutes. In his reply, Vajpayee not only took a dig at the PM but also reminded her of how her father dealt with disagreements. “The PM says she can deal with the Jana Sangh in five minutes. Can any democratic PM speak like this? I say in five minutes you cannot even deal with your own hair, how can you deal with us? When Nehru Ji was angry, he would at least make a good speech!”

In 1984, before sending the Army to flush out militants from the Golden Temple, Indira Gandhi is said to have sought his advice. Vajpayee advised her not to take that course and think of an alternative but she went ahead with Operation Blue Star anyway. However, this demonstrates the faith the PM had in the veteran Parliamentarian.

Vajpayee would not shy away from praising other Congress leaders either. One of his friends across the aisle was Pranab Mukherjee. The two were often seen taking long walks around Parliament, discussing the state of affairs in the nation.

Once during the NDA’s time in power, Pranab Mukherjee and Murli Manohar Joshi were locked in an intense debate on Hindu scriptures, during which Mukherjee quoted Sanskrit shlokas in Parliament. According to Kingshuk Nag’s book ‘Atal Bihari Vajpayee: A man for all seasons’, Vajpayee, now the Prime Minister, stood up and said to Mukherjee, “I warned Joshi not to take pangas with you on religious matters. He does not know you have deep knowledge of the scriptures.”

Then came the year 1999 color tvs and cable channels took over our drawing rooms , and kandhar hijack happened and Prime Minister Atal Bihari Vajpayee wanted to begin the new millennium on a clean slate india succumbed to the demands of Islamic terrorists latter it was identified that india lost golden opportunity of making that aircraft land in amritsar but we let that opportunity let slipped away with India significantly increased its diplomatic costs and political risks. The hostage crisis brought out Indian diplomacy in poor light, with Jaswant Singh focusing more on media spin rather than on longer-term ramifications. Before he left for Kandahar, he publicly declared that the government strategy was both to protect the passengers and crew on board the hijacked jetliner and protect national interests. After he delivered the terrorists, his public comments emphasised only the first goal and were tellingly silent on the second.

 That was failure and then 1999 kargil happened, I was watching barkha dutt covering on TV india was sleeping when terrosist backed by Pakistani army made permanent settlement on hills under India’s boundary Atal bihari was a very well intentioned man he remember him holding hands of navab sharif in Lahore after historic bus service between Amritsar and Lahore was inaugurated , kargil happened just after that (Details are there in Mushraffs biography “Line of Fire”) , india suffered because of its negligence we let intruders build permanent settlement , because of sluggishness and delayed response to understand what actually happened india let Pakistan successfully captured 140 position of utmost strategies importance without a bullet fired and literally half of the Kashmir was at their mercy(yeah the positions were so important)

India never knew about it until a Shepherd(from the caste to which rubia who was rapped belonged to ) told them that some foreigners are killing them with artilleries and as we all know who can be the foreigners and when a search team was sent to know whether he was saying right or not they killed all other than one and captured and brutally tortured him and as they were not Pakistanis so no GENEVA CONSTITUTION yeah it was beyond believable horrendous torcher and they even mutilated the dead bodies of soldiers n sent them back(this is d reson which created anti-pakistan sentiment in Indians n led BJP won first time ever as Pakistanis didn't fight like a man n back stabbed and did horrendous torture to our people).But this also become a blessing for us as our whole military got enraged and we won a nearly impossible battle(yep all western forces considered it nearly impossible as at that time we had nothing to fly above 5000 ft n it was 7000+ N it was impossible without air force).

I loved atal bihari for his love of literature and cultural understanding he even called up dilip kumar who has worked  for indo pak  peace extensively and is respected  and loved in both india and Pakistan to act as a meditator between india and Pakistan . India lost her children’s in the battle likes of vikram batra , pandey and nair to name a few , I happened to be in war memorial at Drass last year , we cant even imagine what these chaps go through and soldier is ready to fight just on order of higher authority I am anti war and sluggishness of government should be blamed for precious deaths of soldiers . Atal biharis government though well intentioned didn’t do justice to the life’s of our soldiers ,  and then in 2001 parliament attacked happened perpetrated by same terrorist masod azhar ‘s organization jaish-e-mohammad he was exchanged for passenger’s of kandhar flight . india paid heavily

Constable Kamlesh Kumari of the Central Reserve Police Force was the first to spot the terrorists and was shot by them as she raised the alarm. She died on the spot. One gunman's suicide vest exploded when he was shot dead; the other four gunmen were also killed. Five policemen, a Parliament security guard, and a gardener were killed and 18 others were injured.The ministers and MPs escaped unhurt. The total number of deaths was 14 and at least 22 people were injured in the attack. Meanwhile atal biharis government carried out Pokhran nuclear test where A.P.J abdul kalam made significant contribution , atal bihari efficiently handled pressure to sign India becoming party of the CTBT and NPT and even invited Bill Clinton then president to indian parliament it was act ego massaging Americas ego. 

No doubt Vajpayee had tough condition to handle and he sometimes won and sometimes lost but he was always graceful, then a incident for which I respect atal bihari the most riots broke in Gujrat and hundreds of Muslims were butchered on the street of  Gujrat.

It was On 27 February 2002, a group of people from a Muslim populated area of Godhra had set fire to a few bogies of a train — the Sabarmati Express — which carried pilgrims from Ayodhya, a town considered holy by the Hindus. Massive riots broke out, mostly targeting Muslims, for nearly a week.
All the killing and pillaging in Gujarat had given Vajpayee a bad name, the more so because Gujarat had a BJP government in place, with a chief minister who had reportedly not risen enough to the occasion to rein in the violence. Vajpayee was blamed for his failure as PM to get rid of Chief Minister Narendra Modi, who reportedly shouted back at a Muslim leader on the phone for seeking help after a mob had gathered outside his house. Some hours later, the Muslim leader was lynched, and Modi is alleged to have asked the police forces to let the violence continue. At that moment, Modi seemed to be the villain who brought a lot of shame to the central government.

Modi had also dared to publicly snub Vajpayee at a press conference where he was seated alongside the prime minister. The reporter wanted to know Vajpayee’s message for the chief minister in the wake of the riots. In controlled displeasure, Vajpayee stated that Modi should ‘follow his Rajdharma’. He explained that Rajdharma was a meaningful term, and for somebody in a position of power, it meant not discriminating among the higher and lower classes of society or people of any religion. In a bid to stop Vajpayee from saying something scathing about him, Modi turned towards Vajpayee, tried to catch his eye and said with a strong note of threatening defiance, ‘Hum bhi wahi kar rahe hain, sahib (That is what we are also doing, sir).’ Vajpayee immediately changed tack and said, ‘I am sure Narendrabhai is also doing the same.’

Three days before his foreign tour in April, when Vajpayee visited the Shah Alam camp in Ahmedabad, which housed 9,000 Muslims displaced by the riots, he was deeply touched when a woman told him that he alone could save them from the hell that their lives had become. Now, on the flight to Singapore, Vajpayee was worried he would expose himself to more humiliation while outside the country. His grouse was: why am I being paraded abroad at such a time?
Shourie suggested that the PM speak to Advani, who had by now become the deputy prime minister, about the possibilities of salvaging the situation — it could even mean replacing Modi. But even after the ‘pep talk’ with Shourie, Vajpayee appeared cheerless. He told Shourie that he would speak to Advani about it.

They reached Singapore; there were no meetings scheduled for the first day. The next day there were several engagements, including ceremonial visits to dignitaries, which included the former ruler Lee Kuan Yew. The Gujarat issue came up in an interview on the third and final day of their stay in Singapore. The journalist who interviewed Vajpayee first stated that Singaporeans were wary of communal disturbances, clearly indicating that he was referring to the recent riots in Gujarat, under the BJP rule.

 Then he shot off his question:
‘And in India such disturbances have happened not once, but several times. In this regard what can Singapore learn from India’s experience and what can you share?’
Vajpayee paused and rubbed his forehead... before answering, betraying a level of discomfiture in answering questions related to the Gujarat riots. Then, weighing his words, he said, ‘Whatever happened in India was very unfortunate. The riots have been brought under control. If at the Godhra station, the passengers of the Sabarmati Express had not been burnt alive, then perhaps the Gujarat tragedy could have been averted. It is clear there was some conspiracy behind this incident. It is also a matter of concern that there was no prior intelligence available on this conspiracy. Alertness is essential in a democracy. We have been cautious. And if one does not ignore even small incidents like one used to in the past, then one will certainly be successful in fighting terrorism.’ Clearly, he was on the defensive, and the issue worried him no end.

Eight months earlier, in late September 2001, amid massive political infighting, it was decided that Modi would replace Keshubhai Patel as chief minister of Gujarat.
On 1 October, Vajpayee asked Modi to meet him in Delhi, where Modi had lived for the previous three years. Modi had put on weight from the last time they had met. Vajpayee joked about too much ‘Punjabi food’ and then got to business. Modi had to go to Gujarat as CM to prepare the state for the next elections due in 2002, Vajpayee said. Modi’s immediate answer was a ‘no’.
Vajpayee insisted, because the Keshubhai Patel administration had incurred public wrath over not doing enough for the people of the state after the 2001 earthquake. Some members of the government were in cahoots with unscrupulous builders indulging in shoddy construction. Some of them enjoyed Patel’s patronage.

Modi told Vajpayee that since he had been away in Delhi as the general secretary in charge of several states, he had been out of touch with local politics. Even so, he agreed to spend ten days a month in the state. However, a short while later, Modi agreed to accept the CM’s position after being convinced by his mentor Advani to do so. Advani knew about Modi’s lack of administrative experience, but was very fond of him. Finally, Modi was sworn in as chief minister of Gujarati on 7
October 2001.

At Panjim in April 2002, the national executive meet began, and a short while later, Modi took to the dais and said he would like to step down as chief minister over the riots. Immediately, people from several sides got up and said there was no need to do so. Whether it was orchestrated or not, Shourie wasn’t sure. But, according to him, Vajpayee felt that it was a coup.
Sensing that things were not going as planned, Shourie got up and described what had gone on between Advani and Vajpayee on the plane and the agreement they had reached thereafter. But shouts kept emerging from the delegates: ‘It cannot be done! Modi cannot be allowed to go!’ Vajpayee immediately understood the situation, and said, ‘Let’s decide on it later.’ ‘It can’t be decided later, it has to be decided now,’ somebody shouted. And as if on cue, it became a slogan.
Shourie observed that Advani hadn’t said anything though he knew very well that Vajpayee wanted Modi out. Seeing things take a different turn, Vajpayee kept mum, opting against a confrontational stance. Perhaps, for all his bravery, he was worried about younger leaders publicly questioning his authority.

He would never forget that humiliation.

Atal bihari Vajpayee was a man of many colors and my favorite man in BJP as vinod Mehta in luckhnow boy memoir describes him as man of “Man of Words ,Women and Whishky” his alleged love affair Rajkumari Kaul, Kaul had been Vajpayee’s constant companion of many years and the mother of his adopted daughter Namita Bhattacharya, when atal bihari was asked why he is bachelor ? he replies  I am unmarried but not a bachelor this shows much about his humor apparently 

rajkumari kaul was atal biharis friend since his collage days they were both classmates in Victoria collage in Gwalior , vinod Mehta says its was apparent Vajpayee was in love rajkumari he wrote a love letter to rajkumari which he kept in a book in the library to which rajkumari also replied but that never reached Vajpayee later Vajpayee shifted to delhi and rajkumari got married to a prof Narayan kaul ,post her marriage she also shifted to delhi in ramjas collage hostel at that point of time both started spending time together again she passed away aged 84  , vajpayee even adopted her family and before vadra ranjan bhattacharya husband of her daughter was the influential son-in-law at PMO. 

Senior journalist girish nikam who was a facebook friend mentions who whenever he called atal bihari ar his home Mrs kaul use to pick up the call. Rajkuamris father didn’t wanted atal to marry her daughter , Vajpayee being a Brahmin was already a upper caste hindu but mrs kaul father thought his caste is much superior to brahmins , by the time mrs kaul passed away atal jis was detected with alzhimer her funeral was also attended by Jyotiraditya scindia only congress leader to do so. Time magazine wrote an article on vajpayess health which was severely criticized by journalist society of india 
.
'India's leader (Vajpayee) takes painkillers for his knees (which were replaced due to arthritis), has trouble with his bladder, liver and his one remaining kidney, takes a three-hour snooze every afternoon on doctor's orders and is given to interminable silences, indecipherable ramblings and, not infrequently, falling asleep in meetings', the article by Time's India correspondent, Alex Perry, says.
Bottom of Formhe further added

He drank heavily in his prime and still enjoys a nightly whiskey or two at 74. A taste for fried food and fatty sweets plays havoc with his cholesterol..

Atal Behari Vajpayee, then, would be an unusual candidate to control a nuclear arsenal. Alex Perry, being an American working for an American magazine was concerned about vajpayees trembling finger on the nuclear button but pressing a button is an act of will , and atal bihari Vajpayee has long ago lost the will to act ,we should be worried about the prime ministers complete passivity ,his habit of letting things drift , can nation afford a leader who asleep at the wheel ?

This article faced much backlash from bjp , they burned his effigies and even government threaten to sent perry back he was the second jpjournalist after mark tully (deported by Indra Gandhi for coverage of Emergency )to face such situation

Never the less Vajpayee had it all what a mass leader should posses debonair , charm , wit and intellect I remember him for his speech in parliament in 1999 loksabha where he said

“Political games will continue. Governments will form and fall, parties will be made and destroyed. But this country must remain and its democracy must remain.”​

RIP
Atal Ji













Love and hate for Atal Bihari for his words, women and whiskey!



There was a playground in my home town which was named as Atal Bihari apparently Vajpayee once came to Khandwa for a political rally and stage was prepared for him on the playground, which was later used as stadium by local cricket teams some journalist who came to Khandwa for covering his political rally where friends with my dad they came to our home tea and snack , I never liked political discussions I was the one who served all guests tea and coffee , unwilling I was exposed to high intellectual discussions in my dad’s study sub consciously I was absorbing , one journalist compliant was that it’s very difficult to shoot his interviews because of the minutes long pauses he takes in between , first introduction to atal bihari was that playground over a medical college is been build up now and next one was the riot which happened in kundleshwar ward Khandwa , we were living in joint family and had Badha (Traditional maharastrian home) I was kid that time and witnessed some muslims shops been attacked and been burned down in our locality , I was to young and naïve to understand and as a kid without my fathers knowledge attended RSS shakas for which later I was reprimanded by my father and stopped attending them.


We moved to another place post that and then internet came into my life, that’s was year 1995 I remember watching his infamous video where he was indulged in demagoguery his infamous speech where from stage he said

सुप्रीम कोर्ट ने हमें, अधिकार दिया है कि हम कार सेवा करेंगे. रोकने का तो सवाल ही नहीं. कार सेवा करके सुप्रीम कोर्ट के किसी आदेश की अवेहलना नहीं होगी. कार सेवा करके सुप्रीम कोर्ट का सम्मान किया जाएगा. खुदाई बाद वहां जो नुकीले पत्थर निकले, उनपर तो कोई नहीं बैठ सकता, तो जमीन को समतल करना पड़ेगा. बैठने लायक बनाना पड़ेगा. यज्ञ का आयोजन होगा. मैं नहीं कल वहां क्या होगा...'


This speech was given hours before babri demolition, I could connect the dots between his speech and riots happened in my area since then I got apprehensive towards religious politics.

You tube and internet introduced his encounter with larger than life Nehrus aura in parliament In 1957, he was elected as a member of the 2nd Lok Sabha from Balrampur in Uttar Pradesh. It was here that he went toe-to-toe with veterans of the Congress, including Prime Minister Jawaharlal Nehru. Vajpayee also caught Nehru’s eye who saw great potential in the young Parliamentarian.


Once Nehru is said to have introduced Vajpayee to the British Prime Minister and said, “He (Atal) is a young leader of the opposition who is always criticising me, but I see in him a great future.” To another foreign dignitary, Nehru described Vajpayee as “India’s blooming young Parliamentarian”.


Nehru is said to have taken a keen interest in Vajpayee, who was unsparing in his criticism of the government and yet, respected the high office of the Prime Minister which Nehru occupied. Once, while taking a dig at Nehru, Vajpayee said, “I know that Pandit Ji practices shirshasana and is welcome to continue doing so, but this does not mean that he should look at issues with an inverted vision.”

In 1970, during a particularly heated debate, Indira Gandhi accused the Jana Sangh of being anti-Muslim and claimed she could deal with an outfit like the Jana Sangh in five minutes. In his reply, Vajpayee not only took a dig at the PM but also reminded her of how her father dealt with disagreements. “The PM says she can deal with the Jana Sangh in five minutes. Can any democratic PM speak like this? I say in five minutes you cannot even deal with your own hair, how can you deal with us? When Nehru Ji was angry, he would at least make a good speech!”


 In 1984, before sending the Army to flush out militants from the Golden Temple, Indira Gandhi is said to have sought his advice. Vajpayee advised her not to take that course and think of an alternative but she went ahead with Operation Blue Star anyway. However, this demonstrates the faith the PM had in the veteran Parliamentarian.

Vajpayee would not shy away from praising other Congress leaders either. One of his friends across the aisle was Pranab Mukherjee. The two were often seen taking long walks around Parliament, discussing the state of affairs in the nation.

Once during the NDA’s time in power, Pranab Mukherjee and Murli Manohar Joshi were locked in an intense debate on Hindu scriptures, during which Mukherjee quoted Sanskrit shlokas in Parliament. According to Kingshuk Nag’s book ‘Atal Bihari Vajpayee: A man for all seasons’, Vajpayee, now the Prime Minister, stood up and said to Mukherjee, “I warned Joshi not to take pangas with you on religious matters. He does not know you have deep knowledge of the scriptures.”

Then came the year 1999 color tvs and cable channels took over our drawing rooms , and kandhar hijack happened and Prime Minister Atal Bihari Vajpayee wanted to begin the new millennium on a clean slate india succumbed to the demands of Islamic terrorists latter it was identified that india lost golden opportunity of making that aircraft land in amritsar but we let that opportunity let slipped away with India significantly increased its diplomatic costs and political risks. The hostage crisis brought out Indian diplomacy in poor light, with Jaswant Singh focusing more on media spin rather than on longer-term ramifications. Before he left for Kandahar, he publicly declared that the government strategy was both to protect the passengers and crew on board the hijacked jetliner and protect national interests. After he delivered the terrorists, his public comments emphasised only the first goal and were tellingly silent on the second. That was failure and then 1999 kargil happened, I was watching barkha dutt covering on TV india was sleeping when terrosist backed by Pakistani army made permanent settlement on hills under India’s boundary Atal bihari was a very well intentioned man he remember him holding hands of navab sharif in Lahore after historic bus service between Amritsar and Lahore was inaugurated , kargil happened just after that (Details are there in Mushraffs biography “Line of Fire”) , india suffered because of its negligence we let intruders build permanent settlement , because of sluggishness and delayed response to understand what actually happened india let Pakistan successfully captured 140 position of utmost strategies importance without a bullet fired and literally half of the Kashmir was at their mercy(yeah the positions were so important)


India never knew about it until a Shepherd(from the caste to which rubia who was rapped belonged to ) told them that some foreigners are killing them with artilleries and as we all know who can be the foreigners and when a search team was sent to know whether he was saying right or not they killed all other than one and captured and brutally tortured him and as they were not Pakistanis so no GENEVA CONSTITUTION yeah it was beyond believable horrendous torcher and they even mutilated the dead bodies of soldiers n sent them back(this is d reson which created anti-pakistan sentiment in Indians n led BJP won first time ever as Pakistanis didn't fight like a man n back stabbed and did horrendous torture to our people).But this also become a blessing for us as our whole military got enraged and we won a nearly impossible battle(yep all western forces considered it nearly impossible as at that time we had nothing to fly above 5000 ft n it was 7000+ N it was impossible without air force).


I loved atal bihari for his love of literature and cultural understanding he even called up dilip kumar who has worked  for indo pak  peace extensively and is respected  and loved in both india and Pakistan to act as a meditator between india and Pakistan . India lost her children’s in the battle likes of vikram batra , pandey and nair to name a few , I happened to be in war memorial at Drass last year , we cant even imagine what these chaps go through and soldier is ready to fight just on order of higher authority I am anti war and sluggishness of government should be blamed for precious deaths of soldiers . Atal biharis government though well intentioned didn’t do justice to the life’s of our soldiers ,  and then in 2001 parliament attacked happened perpetrated by same terrorist masod azhar ‘s organization jaish-e-mohammad he was exchanged for passenger’s of kandhar flight . india paid heavily

Constable Kamlesh Kumari of the Central Reserve Police Force was the first to spot the terrorists and was shot by them as she raised the alarm. She died on the spot. One gunman's suicide vest exploded when he was shot dead; the other four gunmen were also killed. Five policemen, a Parliament security guard, and a gardener were killed and 18 others were injured.The ministers and MPs escaped unhurt. The total number of deaths was 14 and at least 22 people were injured in the attack. Meanwhile atal biharis government carried out Pokhran nuclear test where A.P.J abdul kalam made significant contribution , atal bihari efficiently handled pressure to sign India becoming party of the CTBT and NPT and even invited Bill Clinton then president to indian parliament it was act ego massaging Americas ego. No doubt Vajpayee had tough condition to handle and he sometimes won and sometimes lost but he was always graceful, then a incident for which I respect atal bihari the most riots broke in Gujrat and hundreds of Muslims were butchered on the street of  Gujrat.

It was On 27 February 2002, a group of people from a Muslim populated area of Godhra had set fire to a few bogies of a train — the Sabarmati Express — which carried pilgrims from Ayodhya, a town considered holy by the Hindus. Massive riots broke out, mostly targeting Muslims, for nearly a week.
All the killing and pillaging in Gujarat had given Vajpayee a bad name, the more so because Gujarat had a BJP government in place, with a chief minister who had reportedly not risen enough to the occasion to rein in the violence. Vajpayee was blamed for his failure as PM to get rid of Chief Minister Narendra Modi, who reportedly shouted back at a Muslim leader on the phone for seeking help after a mob had gathered outside his house. Some hours later, the Muslim leader was lynched, and Modi is alleged to have asked the police forces to let the violence continue. At that moment, Modi seemed to be the villain who brought a lot of shame to the central government.
Modi had also dared to publicly snub Vajpayee at a press conference where he was seated alongside the prime minister. The reporter wanted to know Vajpayee’s message for the chief minister in the wake of the riots. In controlled displeasure, Vajpayee stated that Modi should ‘follow his Rajdharma’. He explained that Rajdharma was a meaningful term, and for somebody in a position of power, it meant not discriminating among the higher and lower classes of society or people of any religion. In a bid to stop Vajpayee from saying something scathing about him, Modi turned towards Vajpayee, tried to catch his eye and said with a strong note of threatening defiance, ‘Hum bhi wahi kar rahe hain, sahib (That is what we are also doing, sir).’ Vajpayee immediately changed tack and said, ‘I am sure Narendrabhai is also doing the same.’
Three days before his foreign tour in April, when Vajpayee visited the Shah Alam camp in Ahmedabad, which housed 9,000 Muslims displaced by the riots, he was deeply touched when a woman told him that he alone could save them from the hell that their lives had become. Now, on the flight to Singapore, Vajpayee was worried he would expose himself to more humiliation while outside the country. His grouse was: why am I being paraded abroad at such a time?
Shourie suggested that the PM speak to Advani, who had by now become the deputy prime minister, about the possibilities of salvaging the situation — it could even mean replacing Modi. But even after the ‘pep talk’ with Shourie, Vajpayee appeared cheerless. He told Shourie that he would speak to Advani about it.
They reached Singapore; there were no meetings scheduled for the first day. The next day there were several engagements, including ceremonial visits to dignitaries, which included the former ruler Lee Kuan Yew. The Gujarat issue came up in an interview on the third and final day of their stay in Singapore. The journalist who interviewed Vajpayee first stated that Singaporeans were wary of communal disturbances, clearly indicating that he was referring to the recent riots in Gujarat, under the BJP rule. Then he shot off his question:
‘And in India such disturbances have happened not once, but several times. In this regard what can Singapore learn from India’s experience and what can you share?’
Vajpayee paused and rubbed his forehead... before answering, betraying a level of discomfiture in answering questions related to the Gujarat riots. Then, weighing his words, he said, ‘Whatever happened in India was very unfortunate. The riots have been brought under control. If at the Godhra station, the passengers of the Sabarmati Express had not been burnt alive, then perhaps the Gujarat tragedy could have been averted. It is clear there was some conspiracy behind this incident. It is also a matter of concern that there was no prior intelligence available on this conspiracy. Alertness is essential in a democracy. We have been cautious. And if one does not ignore even small incidents like one used to in the past, then one will certainly be successful in fighting terrorism.’ Clearly, he was on the defensive, and the issue worried him no end. 
Eight months earlier, in late September 2001, amid massive political infighting, it was decided that Modi would replace Keshubhai Patel as chief minister of Gujarat.
On 1 October, Vajpayee asked Modi to meet him in Delhi, where Modi had lived for the previous three years. Modi had put on weight from the last time they had met. Vajpayee joked about too much ‘Punjabi food’ and then got to business. Modi had to go to Gujarat as CM to prepare the state for the next elections due in 2002, Vajpayee said. Modi’s immediate answer was a ‘no’.
Vajpayee insisted, because the Keshubhai Patel administration had incurred public wrath over not doing enough for the people of the state after the 2001 earthquake. Some members of the government were in cahoots with unscrupulous builders indulging in shoddy construction. Some of them enjoyed Patel’s patronage.
Modi told Vajpayee that since he had been away in Delhi as the general secretary in charge of several states, he had been out of touch with local politics. Even so, he agreed to spend ten days a month in the state. However, a short while later, Modi agreed to accept the CM’s position after being convinced by his mentor Advani to do so. Advani knew about Modi’s lack of administrative experience, but was very fond of him. Finally, Modi was sworn in as chief minister of Gujarati on 7
October 2001.

At Panjim in April 2002, the national executive meet began, and a short while later, Modi took to the dais and said he would like to step down as chief minister over the riots. Immediately, people from several sides got up and said there was no need to do so. Whether it was orchestrated or not, Shourie wasn’t sure. But, according to him, Vajpayee felt that it was a coup.
Sensing that things were not going as planned, Shourie got up and described what had gone on between Advani and Vajpayee on the plane and the agreement they had reached thereafter. But shouts kept emerging from the delegates: ‘It cannot be done! Modi cannot be allowed to go!’ Vajpayee immediately understood the situation, and said, ‘Let’s decide on it later.’ ‘It can’t be decided later, it has to be decided now,’ somebody shouted. And as if on cue, it became a slogan.
Shourie observed that Advani hadn’t said anything though he knew very well that Vajpayee wanted Modi out. Seeing things take a different turn, Vajpayee kept mum, opting against a confrontational stance. Perhaps, for all his bravery, he was worried about younger leaders publicly questioning his authority.
He would never forget that humiliation.
'India's leader (Vajpayee) takes painkillers for his knees (which were replaced due to arthritis), has trouble with his bladder, liver and his one remaining kidney, takes a three-hour snooze every afternoon on doctor's orders and is given to interminable silences, indecipherable ramblings and, not infrequently, falling asleep in meetings', the article by Time's India correspondent, Alex Perry, says.
Bottom of Formhe further added
He drank heavily in his prime and still enjoys a nightly whiskey or two at 74. A taste for fried food and fatty sweets plays havoc with his cholesterol..
Atal Bihari Vajpayee, then, would be an unusual candidate to control a nuclear arsenal. Alex Perry, being an American working for an American magazine was concerned about vajpayees trembling finger on the nuclear button but pressing a button is an act of will , and atal bihari Vajpayee has long ago lost the will to act ,we should be worried about the prime ministers complete passivity ,his habit of letting things drift , can nation afford a leader who asleep at the wheel ?

This article faced much backlash from bjp , they burned his effigies and even government threaten to sent perry back he was the second jpjournalist after mark tully (deported by Indra Gandhi for coverage of Emergency )to face such situation
Never the less Vajpayee had it all what a mass leader should posses debonair , charm , wit and intellect I remember him for his speech in parliament in 1999 loksabha where he said
“Political games will continue. Governments will form and fall, parties will be made and destroyed. But this country must remain and its democracy must remain.”​

RIP
Atal Ji